Can freedom be found through confession? I believe it can. After going through my inventory in Step 4 God revealed to me things in my past where I had fallen short. In effect, I was the root of a lot of my troubles. Instead of choosing God first in my life, I chose other things as sources of comfort. I discovered through this journey of mine, in order to have a healthy life, I must choose God before all other things. Now through Step 7, I know I must confess my sins to God so I may be forgiven and cleansed.
It took months for me to realize I had been putting myself before God. I worried more about what people in the world thought of me than what my Creator thought. I concerned myself with how I could control the people, situations, and outcomes around me instead of seeing that God is in control of the entire universe. I believed I could change the people who hurt me instead of seeing how God was changing me through my hurts.
I discovered through this journey of mine, in order to have a healthy life, I must choose God before all other things.
Realizing this through carefully walking with God through the first seven steps of recovery, I found freedom. I am free from being a people pleaser, now I am a God pleaser. I am free from the burden of trying to control and freely allow God to be the controller. I am free to understand that I am being transformed by the blood of Jesus every day. He is my redeemer and through my confession of sins to my Father, I am purified and forgiven.
1 John 1:9 reminds me of this important truth.
"If we confess our sins, He is faithful and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness."
You see, I am not perfect. I strive to be, but until I am on the other side of this world I cannot be perfect. I am flawed, but I need God to redeem me and purify me.